after doing several very successful Yuletides in a row, i defaulted post-deadline with a placeholder and zero excuse besides being paralyzed by perfectionism (which I know isn't an actual excuse). definitely the worst fandom sin I've committed. the recipient had a treat already so at least no one was scrambling for a pinch-hit ... I ended up going to therapy about it because wtf. I haven't participated in yuletide in ~5 years; I might try to write a treat this year but I don't think I'm going to sign up again, just in case.